With You I feel complete

Baby you are the one with whom i feel complete. It has been more than 5 years of togetherness. And i still can't believe that we are together. We had end number of fights, breakup and worst the distance between us but still we are connected. We feel for each other. We really love each other. I love you wholeheartedly. And I know you love me even more. These two days which we have spent together make us more closer. As we have already expressed we felt like a couple for the first time. Reasons were many but above all that what matters is we love each other. We wants to be with each other. We wants to fight for us to be WE. I know it's a difficult phase for you but believe me prince, for me what matters the most is your happiness. Your smile is what makes me happy the most. No matter whether we will be together or not, I just want to see you happy and satisfied. You deserve that. You are the best person i have ever met in my life that's why i come back to you always because i know you are the BEST. I will be the luckiest girl if by any chance i becomes your wife but nevertheless i still feel lucky because you are my love and i am yours. That smile on your face make me fall in love with you again and again. Little care that you do make me feel blessed. And that touch make me feel beautiful. That twinkle in your eyes makes me feel content. 
Words can't describe enough my love for you still i am trying. I just want to let you know that I love you so much and i am with you always and i always want you to be happy, smiling and successful. Just give your best prince, everything will be alright. Only thinking doesn't make things work, you have to act upon that. You have to work hard and it's high time to do that prince. Go for it. I am all yours and will always be. Make your dreams come true. Let the world shine for you. Let your parents feel proud on you. Let me say to our angels that i am the wife of an officer. Let you feel proud on yourself.

Love You Lots
Yours and only yours Princess

Crush

Ahem ahem so i have a crush on someone. It is so nice to have this tickling feeling. Butterflies in the pit of my stomach *blushing*...waiting for his messages..thinking about him most of the time knowing that nothing is going to happen between us still first time in life m enjoying something so uncertain. 

I have changed a lot...I used to be so certain about things before beginning anything whether it would be a relationship or a career or anything for that matter so that i wont hurt myself in future. 

  But now here i am knowing that nothing is going to happen still allowing myself to blush, to think about him,.let the feelings captures my mind and heart. 

After all what i have learnt in life is you can't plan everything especially relationships are not meant to be planned. They just happen and one should not crush the possibility of having a miracle may be in future someday. 

I am so happy today..reason not only my crush but also the new dress which i wore yesterday in office party and got so many compliments *giggling*

Sometimes it feels good to be happy for small things whether its a crush or a new dress. What matters is To Smile :)

#Happyme

I wrote something in my message box as a draft while i was missing my crush ;) 

I want to say a lot
But would you like to listen
I doubt..
You seems so perfect to me
I wonder whether it is crush or attraction
My heart is beating at a faster pace
Moments spent with you has spell a magic
You think I was getting bored with you..
Actually i was holding myself not to fall in love with you.
I am feeling so dumb
It's a mixed feeling that I can't even express
I am missing you who can make me feel so good
But I can't say anything bcz it may be an attraction... 

I Quit

I can't take it further.

Life at 25

My life at 25 is pretty amazing if you see from another person's perspective. 

I have a job. I am living on my own. I can go anywhere i want. I can wear any dress i wish to. I can be friend with anyone. I am not dependent on my parents anymore. 

But to me, my life is incomplete because it couldn't fulfill the aim which i saw (-Being Chartered Accountant). It did not have the lover by my side whom i really love(-My Prince). My job pays me just enough to survive not more than that (i can't buy expensive brands).   

Still I am very thankful to God that he showered his blessings on me and gave me whatever i have. I want to thank God for each and everything. I have my faith in his plans and i know my life will get better with each passing day. Thank You Almighty :)

I want to write

I want to write...I want to write a lot. I want to write each and every feeling that i am going through. I want to write which i can't say to anyone in this world. I want to tell you my dear blog that i feel helpless at times. I feel like i am the most selfish girl on this planet. I feel like i am the reason behind his failure. I feel pathetic. I feel so unlucky sometimes that i can't even describe. Sometimes i don't feel like talking to anyone and i just want to be myself. 
I smile, i laugh but nobody knows what i am going through. I am fighting with myself. I am fighting with the thought that i have spoiled someone's life. I want to make him happy. I want to make him feel loved. I love him. I really love him a lot. But i don't know what should i do and how should i do? This long distance relationship sucks with no hope of being together. Not being able to love him sucks. Words can express the way how i feel but distance kills it. An eye contact on skype gives some relief but the feeling of holding hand is missing. It's an another awkward phase of my life. Where i love him but i can't get him. I have no idea what future holds but i want to be with him like always...always. I wish if i could spend every night hugging him and kissing him. Nights are the best to express love. 
I am here again and wish to get some answers of my questions. I just wish to love him forever.

Miss You

I miss you every night
I miss you while watching movies
I miss you when i see couple fighting
I miss that connection with you
I miss that feeling of being in love with you
I miss to eat icecream n walk with you
I miss to see your smile
I miss to hear my name in your voice
I miss to talk to you for no reason
I miss to call you mine
I miss to feel so blessed inside
I miss to blush when you call me urs
I miss to hug and to kiss
I miss a whole lot that i can't describe
I miss you a lot that is all i can say
I know neither you nor the time will come back
But i really miss you...i can't describe

Being a writer

People say that when a person is sad, he tends to be a writer/ poet. This is so true in my case. 

I am not saying that i am an awesome writer but still sadness and loneliness makes me write a hell lot of emotions that i am going through in a perfect way. Writing is the therapy for me and i need it very much that is why i am here once again.